Just couldn't find the right quote to say it ;)

I walk, feet moving in front of me. One step, one more step! I do not see the road, I stumble. Regain balance, but the fear has set itself. My legs are not as steady and I look down at the abyss below me. My feet stops, I stop and look! My eyes look, they look down and around. They see things they have not seen before. Mountains, sky - a lovely sky - Earth and life in a small bird, a squirrel. I close my eyes, I hear. What glory I hear. My thoughts have never been able to circle itself around a sensory experience greater than what it is experiencing right now. All of me shudder, as if a smile falls into me, a happiness I can feel in my throat - The butterflies in my stomach, as if the good life is competing with itself about how it will feel the most; how it can. I have to close my eyes, fall down to the ground, flat to the ground and my arms wrapped around something - maybe it is myself! I hold on so hard, I will never let go! I close my eyes again and let sleep bring peace to my happiness.

The alarm-clock shrugs me out of my sleep, the feeling is still stuck in my stomach. I am frustrated, do not know what to do! I make breakfast, get dressed, shower and leave for work; studies. I repress the feeling, I can not let it stay. I do not know what to feed it! How to make it grow, nurture it and make it want to stay. I know it is there and I can bring it out at any time - when I have time - at least I think I can!?! One day I will know just the right thing to do, the best recipe and the greatest of words. I will do and say and be, I will want and seek and find..... 

I would like to scream that this is me... is it not good enough, how can it be?