Total confusion - another identity crisis(!?!)

What is this creepy spring feeling that makes me want to share more than looks with someone of the opposite sex. I am so proud of my - self-confident, don't really care, like me the way I am, I deserve something great - attitude. Yupp, that is who I am (at least in theory). This works out fine for me and I don't feel I have to do any double somersaults or flip over backwards to find someone when that time comes... 
Lately this theory thing is becoming hard to live up to, I feel an identity crisis coming on! I have become a bit to fixated on looks, and I pretend that I have not passed 30 (those who know that story know what I am talking about ;) One day I want to wear pig-tails or dress like a hippie, next day a blouse and black skirt is fit. I feel that I am well into adulthood, but I feel my child (youth??) screaming out not to be forgotten (or have I turned this equation up side down??). The problem is that I just can't manage to find the balance between the two. Have you found it? Is it included in the pot at the end of the rainbow? I feel a bit like the ten small raindrops that just got stuck on my window... luckily some more rain fell, and I do not any longer feel like doing that metaphor - the raindrops got company, and is no longer fading away =)

They say people are strongest in a crisis, I think that excludes an identity crisis!

Close scrutiny will show that most "crisis situations" are opportunities to either advance, or stay where you are.
Dr. Maxwell Maltz